Taking a Moment of Pause
Meditation courses are often associated with older individuals. However, during my recent Vipassana retreat, I was pleasantly surprised to find a diverse group of vibrant individuals in their 20s and 30s embarking on this introspective journey. It made me wonder: Is this a wake-up call for our generation, signaling a need for inner peace and self-nurturing? Or perhaps, it is a positive indication that young people are actively seeking personal growth and serenity.
As the year 2022 drew to a close, I found myself caught in a whirlwind of thoughts and emotions, leaving me at crossroads in life. Society’s expectations to settle down and conform clashed with my own aspirations and dreams. The weight of juggling multiple commitments — my full-time job, a part-time gig, and volunteering at a local school on weekends — suddenly became suffocating. Lost in the chaos, I yearned for clarity and respite from the noise. It was at that critical moment that I summoned the courage to make a daring decision: to leave it all behind and immerse myself in a Vipassana retreat in the enchanting region of Ladakh in India.
Discovering Beauty, Rediscovering Self
Stepping foot in Leh (Joint capital of Ladakh, India), I was immediately struck by the breathtaking beauty of the landscape. Opting for Leh was a conscious choice — an opportunity to subject me to both physical challenges, such as extreme weather, and the rigorous mental journey of Vipassana. Upon entering the Vipassana center, a serene atmosphere enveloped us. Mobile phones and gadgets were surrendered at the entrance, freeing us from the distractions of the outside world.
The Vipassana center operated under the guiding principles of Sila, emphasizing moral conduct and noble silence. It entailed abstaining from activities such as killing, stealing, lying, indulging in intoxicants, and engaging in any form of sexual activity. Adhering to these principles allowed our minds to find calmness and stillness. Our accommodations, though simple, provided the necessary comfort for our journey. Our daily routine revolved around extensive meditation sessions, interspersed with short breaks for rest and reflection. Sattvic meals, known for their nourishing qualities, were served twice a day, accompanied by a light evening snack.
Day 0 marked the beginning of our self-discovery, providing essential information about the facilities, including separate walking areas and limited water usage due to the remote location’s scarcity. From that point forward, silence reigned supreme. The days stretched ahead, devoid of gadgets, journals, books, and spoken words. The 10 days proved challenging as time seemed to slow to a crawl. Fatigue and drowsiness threatened to overpower me during meditation.
Wrestling with a Restless Mind
A common hurdle for many of us was the restless nature of the mind — a relentless wanderer, constantly dragging us into the past or future. Redirecting our focus back to meditation demanded persistence and practice. In the early stages, I allowed my mind to wander. Monotony set in during the initial three days as our sole instruction was to observe the breath — a departure from the structured breathing of Pranayama. Restless and bored, I granted my mind permission to wander freely.
It was only on the fourth day that we were introduced to observing sensations on our bodies. Trusting the process proved to be a gradual journey, hindered by my own tendency to overthink. Yet, as I immersed myself in the practice, my understanding deepened. Amidst the challenges, profound moments of joy and clarity punctuated our journey. On the fourth day, the solemn faces that had filled the atmosphere were momentarily illuminated by wonder and delight as delicate snowflakes descended upon us. It was a magical morning, the first encounter with snow for many of us, and we reveled in the enchantment of the moment.
Throughout the course, I confronted my inner baggage — the actions I harbored regrets for and the deep-seated darkness I yearned to eliminate. Each of us embarked on a profound journey of self-exploration, observing emotions and bodily sensations without judgment. The mind became the focal point, to be reined in and directed back to meditation at every juncture. The evening discourses by Goenkaji provided much-needed solace and wisdom. Free from religious undertones, his talks delved into the core of meditation and its profound implications. These discourses transcended spiritual boundaries, striking a deep chord within me.
Key to Inner Resilience
The most powerful lesson of all was the concept of “Anicca” — the impermanence of all things. Embracing the impermanence allowed us to navigate life’s challenges without succumbing to anger or negativity. In the past, frustration would consume me when circumstances deviated from my expectations. I would lash out, exacerbating the difficulties. However, the retreat awakened in me a newfound strength to face adversity with grace, acknowledging the transient nature of all things.
The true power of Vipassana unfolded in the weeks following the retreat. On a subsequent journey to Kashmir’s Dal Lake, I found myself struggling in freezing water, desperately seeking help as panic threatened to overwhelm me. At that moment, I witnessed the transformative impact of the practice. While I succumbed to fear and sought external assistance, my friend, equally challenged by the circumstances, exhibited unwavering calmness. She trusted in her ability to stay afloat until help arrived, knowing that dire consequences were unfounded. Looking back, I realized the unnecessary panic I had initially embraced, aware that I possessed the skills to navigate the situation.
The Endless Odyssey
Vipassana taught me that the journey of self-discovery transcends the confines of a ten-day retreat — it is a lifelong odyssey. It demands dedication, patience, and unwavering commitment. Though occasional missteps may occur, I now possess the tools to find my way back to inner peace and equilibrium.
My transformative Vipassana retreat in Leh, Ladakh continues to resonate as an extraordinary milestone in the narrative of my life. It allowed me to detach from the noise of modern existence and embark on an inward journey of self-discovery. The challenges were daunting, but the lessons learned were invaluable — patience, self-awareness, and the power of impermanence. Vipassana has become an integral part of my spiritual journey, empowering me to navigate life’s trials with newfound serenity and clarity. Every day, I delve deeper into the realms of self-discovery, uncovering new facets of my being. With each step, I am filled with an overwhelming sense of gratitude for the profound and lasting impact this journey has had on my life.
Actionable Insights for Embracing Mindfulness
1. Cultivating Mindful Awareness: Let’s embark on the journey of cultivating mindful awareness together, observing our thoughts and emotions without judgment, and responding consciously. We can become mindful ninjas, navigating life with clarity and presence.
2. Unlocking Breath Magic: Discover the magic of your breath through Anapana Meditation, where we observe the natural rhythm of our respiration. This practice enhances our focus, calms the mind, and helps us stay grounded in the present moment.
3. Embracing the Dance of Change: Embrace the beauty of impermanence, like a dance that gracefully flows through our lives. Letting go of attachments and finding joy in the ever-changing rhythm of life allows us to embrace change with open hearts and open minds.
4. Activating Silence Superpowers: Tap into the power of silence and cultivate moments of quietude in our daily lives. Disconnect from distractions and create space to connect with our inner stillness. By embracing silence, we can discover profound insights and cultivate inner peace.
5. Uniting as Compassion Warriors: Let’s become warriors of compassion, extending kindness and understanding to ourselves and others. By cultivating compassion, we contribute to creating a more loving and harmonious world for all beings.
6. Practicing Mindfulness in Motion: Turn ordinary activities into mindful adventures. Whether we’re walking, eating, or working, let’s engage with curiosity and presence, discovering new depths in the familiar. By infusing mindfulness into our everyday actions, we can enrich our experiences and find greater fulfillment.
7. Powering Up with Persistence: Embrace the power of persistence in our mindfulness practice. Stay committed, overcome challenges, and unlock the transformative effects of Vipassana and other mindfulness techniques. With persistence, we can deepen our understanding and experience profound personal growth.
Let us embrace the journey of self-discovery and inner peace this International Yoga Day. Whether through Vipassana meditation, dance, doodling, sports, or any other alternative paths, let’s celebrate the diversity of approaches to nurturing ourselves. Let’s create a world where peace, love, and compassion flourish.
*Originally published on Medium by Vikram Ghandeeswaran Narayanan*
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Vikram Ghandeeswaran Narayanan
Vikram Ghandeeswaran Narayanan is a passionate advocate for education and youth development. He is actively contributing to Discover-I, an initiative born from the collective vision of his college batch-mates to empower children through education. Through Discover-I, he ensures that every child has access to enriching educational experiences that nurture their growth, happiness, and future success. Having honed his experience in the nonprofit sector, Vikram has played a pivotal role in driving global advocacy efforts and supporting strategic initiatives with Dream a Dream. Working closely with the organization's leadership, he has gained deep insights into the challenge faced by children and remains steadfast in his commitment to champion their cause, to create a world where every child can thrive. As the former Education Collaboration Lead for Catalyst 2030, Vikram brought together social entrepreneurs from around the world to collaborate on achieving quality education for all. Through this collaborative approach, he witnessed firsthand the incredible impact that can be achieved when passionate individuals unite towards a common goal. Vikram also serves as a Youth Advocate for the Education Above All Foundation and a Global Youth Ambassador with Theirworld. Further, he has volunteered his time to initiatives such as the OECD Future of Education and Skills 2030 project, demonstrating his commitment to shaping the future of education. Vikram's dedication to empowering children and his continuous drive to learn and grow serve as catalysts for positive change.
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